Welcome to my blog

It is about time I stop lurking at everyone else's blog and set up my own. I am a TonyDiva and find it motivating to read all of the other diva's blogs! I've been with Tony since last November. Even though they don't know me , it was Stacey and Beka's success that made me take the leap of faith...a leap I wish I would have taken sooner. With Tony's help I competed and won my first figure competition May 12th. I won 1st in my class and overall figure champion. The show was not a national qualifier, but great for getting my feet wet. I had hoped to do a show 3wks later, but decided the Tuesday before to pull out, I was mentally burned out and needed a break. As you fellow competitors know, prepping for a show, you are constantly going and your mind never stops racing.

The bad news and the main reason for starting this blog...my eating has been COMPLETELY out of control for 1 month!!! I am a sugar addict all the way! Each day I promise myself, write out goals, and prepare to be 100% clean. Unfortunately I am an "all or nothing" kind of gal. If I eat one brownie, I think the day is screwed and continue to eat bad. I used to never think like this, I was in control and completely focused...I've lost my mojo. I miss being the "machine" that didn't think once or twice about putting that naughty bite in my mouth. The "machine" who automaticly got out of bed each morning and put on her running shoes, there was no thinking to it. Right now I feel like a huge blob. You would think I would be happy to have my boobs back, but not having them meant I was lean and mean. I realize most of the weight I'm carrying is water weight. For the June 2nd show I was sodium loading, then when I decided not to do the show, all I consumed was sugar and I never sodium depleted (you get the picture). Tony is aware of most of this, but not he doesn't realize how bad I've fallen off the wagon. I'm getting back into doing my weights. I did sooo much cardio pre-contest, that I just don't want to think about it.

I want to do a show Aug 10th, the Europa in Dallas, only 9wks from today! I know I can do this, I just need my focus back. I believe if I added in my daily morning 1hr walk/runs, eat 100%clean, and visualize non-stop I would be able to pull off this added weight in a couple of weeks. I so badly want to have a collection of trophy's and swords, I can see them lined up on my dresser now. This Thursday is payday and I absolutely can not wait to order my Isagenix 9day cleanse. I continue to research forums and blogs and I get excited just reading everyones positive feedback. Until the cleanse arrives I intend to pull off some of this weight so that by the end of the cleanse, I will be closer at reaching my goal weight. 4wks out from the Europa I would like to be satisfied at where I'm at, just so I won't have to literally kill myself witht the cardio before the show.

So yeah, I know what I want, I just have to put the plan into action. Today has not been perfect, but from here on out I'm going to make a strong effort to win myself another trophy. I still have a leg w/o to do tonight...gotta love those lunge lifts! "No hurt, no skirt"!

Keep in mind I'm new to this and I'm still trying to find the best way to post pics on here. The above pic was taken backstage at my May 12th show. I refuse to post a current pic and weight. However I will be posting daily pics and measurements while doing the isagenix cleanse. I look forward to all of you keeping me accountable!